Wednesday, July 06, 2011
A New Goal
I'm back! I was gone during the longish 4th of July weekend, up north visiting my parents to be exact, so the blog had to take a little break. And while I was gone I made a decision. Or more like a goal? For the past few months I've been struggling with weight loss, as I'm inching closer to 30, staying at the weight I feel best at is getting ridiculously hard. So instead of beating myself up and driving myself crazy about a half pound weight gain, my new goal is simple: Get Strong. Physically strong like I've never been before.
If I lose weight, fine, but what I'm focusing on is feeling healthy, strong, and flexible. I've had a bad back almost all my life (so does my dad, what a great thing to inherit!) and when I work hard on my core (which I haven't done lately) my back pain lessens and occurs much less often. I've never been strong, I spent most of my teenage years as obese (I used to weigh well over 100 pounds more than I do now) and never did anything active. I work out pretty regularly now, but there are still things I've never been able to do, like a non-modified push up, I can't even do one! So one of my goals is not only to do a push up, but to do a one armed push up. Crazy right?
I think the biggest challenge won't be physical, it will be getting past ingrained thoughts about weight and size that intellectually I know are completely stupid but deep down still bother me sometimes. Things like clothing size, when I was a kid, my mom made a huge huge deal when I would go up a size and I would feel horrible. So now when I try on a size I think I should fit and it doesn't for whatever reason, I have to remind myself that the number doesn't matter, you wear the size that's comfy and that fits. End of story. And please don't think my mom is terrible, we have a MUCH better relationship now that I'm an adult. Moms and daughters are so complicated!
Anyway, back to my goal. I officially started yesterday by trying Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred. The first couple of parts are available on Comcast on Demand so I thought I'd give it a go. And holy cow, it kicked my butt! The workouts are all under 30 minutes, although I was only able to do 14 minutes before my legs turned to jelly and I had to quit. But I'll be keeping at it, along with runs with my husband, yoga, and trips to the gym. I picked up the DVD last night so I won't be sad when it disappears from On Demand, I hate when that happens! Someone on twitter has even offered to do the 30 Day Shred along with me, which is great, support is awesome! So I'm super excited about new goal, get ready for a super strong Kala!